I have more inhibitions then I realized….

So a friend recently asked, why can't you just let loose and have some fun? JUST CHILL. So it got me thinking…. Am I boring?? Lots of peer pressure here in India! I guess I realized I am more inhibited than I thought. Is it that I am more conservative? Am I a control freak? Am I overly rigid? Maybe all of the above. I am trying to let loose some more. No judgment. Nothing is good or bad, right? If you live life and you enjoy then who cares. I had this weird sensation overcome me yesterday while I was sitting in the Pediatric conference. Who created our complicated biological system? What do humans look/act like in other planets (since its too egoistical to think we are the only ones alive)? Why are we on this planet? What was the purpose of being born? Which other species are alive in this universe? Isn’t it a bit narcissistic to think that we are the only ones that exist in this vast galaxy filled with 8 (some say 9) other planets?? Everyone here seems to smoke joints, drink until they are numb, and party like a rockstar. Is it because they are not enjoying life that they need another source to help them or is it because it is so much fun to feel out of touch with reality that they keep going back for more? Or is it just boredom and too much money?? These people have high expectations of Americans (since most of what they know is from tv: aka house wives on bravo, MTV, 90210, you get the picture?) So ofcourse I can’t live up to that standard! Maybe I am boring, but I am okay with that. Atleast I have strong values, an ethical code of conduct I live by, and a strong moral compass to back me up. I think it wouldn’t hurt if India started opening a few more finishing schools….ha! Thank God I have kept my American mentality with me. A friend of mine said, "your genes are Indian, but thank goodness your upbringing is not"!